This is going to sound really strange, this memorial is for my lost breast. I was changed 11/2005 when I had my left breast removed instead of taking chemo or radiation. I have not been the same person. I hide a lot of my emotions but come on, God gave me 2 breasts and at the age of 48 1 was removed. Yes, it saved my life and I am totally grateful for that!! I cannot wear the same clothes that I had worn, I stand different and it is something that is always in my mind. I am a really strong person and I totally joke about it but it is still gone and I feel like I lost a part of Mikki, which I did!! My daughter is suggesting to have new boobs put in/on. I'm not sure if I am willing to go there with all the surgery and pain. I believe I have put my body through enough and it is not to save my life. I am confused about this but in time it will work it's self out. I am sorry if this is upsetting the people that have lost a person to read this but it is just emotional for me to lose my breast. My heart goes out to the people that have paid for breast cancer with their lives and yes I know I am one of the lucky ones to still be here to live my life. For this I am very thankful!!