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Light a Candle
FOR A SPECIAL FATHER............
It's a day none of us can ever forget, They say you never forget "The man you 1st loved i do, it was you dad. Things were'nt easy for me and my sisters growing up, I seem to remember every little arguement, the fights my mothers bruise's, but i also cant forget your scars on ur head and shoulder from the one on ur shoulder gave you a big enough fright to stop the beatings you gave my mum? Dad i never LOVED you any less i just could not understand as a child how you&mum could argue and see us so upset screaming for you to leave my mum or asking my mum to leave you? I'm sorry as i grew older i started to realise and know when things would flare up, as a child i always thought it was your fault a i hit my Teens i started to realise that you would sit quiet and my mum would just keep on at you like she wanted you to hit her (but you did not need to do that? why could'nt you have just walked away at the time? But thats an answer me and my sisters will never get). But now i am a young woman and i look back at my childhood, i cannot say i never ever was deprived of anything and i would be so disgusted if any of my sisters said that they were. You were a loving man but why you would not show that side i will never know either, Maybe its because my Grandad Anderson died when you were a Teen 16 i think you said you were? but i had my grandad Tug aww how much of a great man he was :>) you and my mum always made sure we had what we wanted like our friends even though we would take it in turns to get something each week, 1 wk id get my trainers the next Shona and then lorraine. I do not care what people say about you now, they must have sad lives if they want to keep living in the past. 9Mth after you passed away so did your Grand-Daughter Tiffany she lays in rest at Mortonhall not far from my grandad Dunn. I wish i had got to spend more time with you before you passed away but i was detoxing and i know what you would have wanted? I left they place drug free and i was not told how bad the Illness had EFFECTED you this is why i will always make sure your memory, my mothers and my daughter and son's will never be forgotten you were a great man and many people will agree and many will not but they do not matter they are not worth the time. I was disgusted with your sisters and brothers and still am i last seen your sister Cathrine at Tiffany's Funeral she came with her daughter Julie, after Tiffanys service was over and everyone left, i wanted to sit on my own at tiffanys Grave and pick up the cards from the reef's and flowers as i got back home to Donna's in Dunbar i looked at your sisters to find that she had wrote on the back of a Dog grooming Service Card not one from a florist Maybe she thought they would not interest me but that hurt a lot seeing that card. Dad i have tried my best to keep in touch with your family but for some reason or other they do not want to know? Any of us? But this is nothing to worry about now dad i have my mums family. But i get so ANGRY THAT THEY LIED TO YOU ME AND MY SISTERS DO NOT AND DID NOT WANT ANYTHING FROM THEM BUT I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN SINCE I WAS YOUNG B4R I WAS A TEEN THEY WERE NOT BOTHERED ABOUT US, SO SORRY DAD BUT IVE CLOSED THE BOOK ON THEM. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART. ALL MY LOVE FOR ETERNITY. YOUR LOVING DAUGHTER WENDY LORRAINE ANDERSON.XXXX
